s t r a w b e r r y f i e l d s

like a premmie,

too fragile and delicate

who cannot be overstimulated,

i feel so exhausted.

i haven't been with another being for so long,

i suffered extreme tiredness and physical lethargy for good 24 hours afterwards.

and a sense of emptiness - 

initially mild sense of guilt and shame,

followed by a sense of regret

that i had revealed too much of myself,

given away too many secrets too soon,

allowed them too much access to my body and my mind,

i had to stay away.