it begins like this,
카테고리 없음 2010. 8. 24. 21:31
waking in the morning becomes a complete chore,
no amount of sun or warmth can wake me
i lay there in the bed like a log, as if nothing could ever wake me from this deep sleep
as if i were in an alice hoffman novel with some disturbing sleep disease.
the aggression builds, so that without thinking i find myself lightly punching friends and even not-quite-friends work colleagues or fellow study group member because i just cannot help myself and the aggressive energy needs a way out of my body.
insidiously it starts.
i start to write to someone - anyone - really nobody at all - but i cannot continue i cannot even type a single word to begin to describe how i am feeling without it becoming a depressing sob email that no-one is gonna be happy to read. the phrase that keeps repeating itself in my head is not waving but drowning... once a blue moon one starts to feel it start all over again.
