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i hate this uncertainty. the vagueness of this non-relationship. i don't know how much of myself to put in, how attached to become, how much i let myself like him or let him in, because we are 'casually dating', whatever that means.

he says he's liked me for two years, and yet here we are, 'casually dating', cautiously figuring each other out. i find myself constantly asking 'do you like me? do you like talking to me? do you like spending time with me?' because i do not know. 

i like hard lines, i like clarity, i want defined relationships. you are a lover, you are a friend, you are merely an acquaintance, an internet friend, a stranger, a nobody. please, tell me what to think, tell me where to draw the line because i do not know and it is killing me the not knowing. 

 

 

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