if i remember only the good things -
- all the loving words he uttered, his eyes steadily fixed on me, the way we touched -
then it makes me miss him too much,
and soon it turn to anger and sadness, that none of those things lasted,
that his love if it ever was died so soon anyway, that it was all useless in the end, might as well never have happened,
because love without future love without persistence love that evaporates what use is there ?
i wish i could have the whole chunk of my memory just erased,
that he had never existed,
coz you can't crave for something you never had or lost.
daily reminder: he doesn't love you anymore.
have a cry because
his love only lasted such a short time
it was probably not love at all,
you are not worthy of it
you were never lovable anyway
you are bound to be alone forever.
