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some might say,  you have the job anyone would want, with the security and high pay and whatnot

some might say, what have you got to complain about

it's not about what you have, what you have not

it's not material things

it's the vast emptiness within,

that doesn't fill with things, tangible things, or even people or relationships,

i know it is there and am reminded of it every day

it's a wound that never heals

i know not how to heal or to be complete

or rather, i cannot seem to surrender to it.